Just do it.

Running tomorrow. Aiming for 8 miles around the park at least everyday. I want to get my toned 15-year-old body back.

I deactivated Facebook forever finally. I think the best way to get around doing something is to stop doing things that are slowing you down.

*edit* I lied. Haha. Oh gawd. One day I will shut it down. I swear. One day...

Boys and girls

I really don't like how some boys call girls superficial. 

Not every girl is superficial.

I wonder what would the boys think if we called them cocky or jerks.

Not every boy is cocky or a jerk.

Boys and girls, please get along.

Ken

My Japanese pen pal of 5 years wrote to me recently:

"Hi, Tran!

I am Ken.  Remember me? (^^)

How are you?

I have many things to do nowadays, but i am enjoying daily life.

Being busy may be happiness for me, haha.

I think you got good job and work now.

Well, I would like to know what you do and what you are interested in.

I want to tell you about what laboratory I will enter.

Next month, i will be alloted to a laboratory but I haven't known in detail yet.

So, I thought I should send you this mail to you next month, but I have something to say to you.

Happy birthday!

ken"

D'awwwwwwwwwwwww! :3

facebok + friends

So I deactivated my facebook account for the 15th time this year.   Sometimes I feel certain people shouldn't bother going through my pictures simply because facebook had made things more... stalker-ish?  

I think it was pretty selfish of me to end a friendship with someone by simply removing them off a friend's list.  It was cruel and unfair, and yet they eventually discover why they couldn't find me to comment on my birthday.  

I think this second friend whom I ended my friendship with didn't really see me as a friend, but as someone to use and do favors for.  It's been several months now and I do feel guilty.  The only thing that's keeping me from re-friending them is that I think we will eventually return to the state of "use and abuse" which I loathe so much before.  I always thought she was naturally manipulative in many ways to have people do things.  Wow, if I had the ability to do that I would be rich from upselling people!  Yet she was using that ability for the wrong things, especially in me.  I didn't like it.  I chose to be distant for another long while.

The first friend I regrettably ended my friendship with temporarily is considered to be even more distant.  Haha, I think in literal terms too.  I think about what I have done in the past though.  I was very immature, impatient, bold, demanding, pushy and needy much like Scarlet from Gone with the Wind.  He was very easy going and living every day for its moment.  Not a bit of worry went through his mind in exception of papers to write. 

At the time, I was ridiculously infatuated with him.  It was obvious.  When I like someone, really like-like someone, my mind is somewhere else and I forget important things like my bag or keys.  I don't know why.  It itches me every time I think I once had a crush on him, but now he has completely surpassed my time of interest.  Sometimes we don't speak in the same level of thought nor did he not know how to reply to certain things like personal situations.  Now I just seem some girl with problems.  A girl that is not normal with the rest of the world.  A girl who is insecure and not happy about herself.  I don't think I am.  I think my I was over my head back then.    Too bad we don't speak often anymore.  I think my other friends are better friends with him than myself.  Heh.  I think I'm a bad friend on my part for being selfish.

Well what do you mean I'm selfish, you ask?  I think I have some expectations out of a friend.  I kind of question their friendship.  Are you worthy of my friendship?  Sometimes I overlook bad qualities that you have including forgetfulness, lust or greed.  When you have qualities that I don't like it affects me in a way where I don't see where it's headed toward our friendship and then I just call it off.  Yes, I'm bad.  I kind of rekindle the friendship if they change somehow or if they are really persistent to stay as my friend.  Maybe I should be the one who should change.

It's late. I have class at 9 AM.   Off topic, but I think I want to play with my keyboard again.  My fingers want to dance on some keys.  We'll see about tomorrow after the Hikki event. G'nite.

Cute! Hehe.

Hikki

Tuesday night I'll be heading up to see Utada Hikaru in LA with Laura and Amanda.  I'm not a fan of her music now, but I'd like to see her perform in person.   It's free too. 

I made a public blog mainly for thoughts and other random musings.  Take it as an open diary because it can be taken as offensive or as something light-hearted.  The written entries will be pretty damn honest and not soften any story even if the person I'm writing about will read it here. Again, I have in mind that the public will grace their eyes on me and this blog. 

Cheers, 

Minty