Face. Desk.

A lot of times when I'm being straightforward I tend to throw people off.

I am so awkward. I don't know how to handle these situations. What situations? People in general, I suppose. Sometimes I need people to spell it out for me rather than telling me to "figure it out." I understand things more directly than indirectly. It would be like me asking Yoda, "What do you mean the force is around me? How?" When I'm stuck, I turn to a few friends who has a great degree in knowing my personality and my actions to guide me. They tell me things that I'm too blind to notice or paint me a bigger picture of the problem so I would understand.

I believe I create damage when I do things passively. A lot of times I am unaware of it. Sadly. Sometimes people get offended when I take too long to think about what I have to say because I tend to take my time to collect, comprehend, and formally say what's necessary. Otherwise, it will be a sea of verbal vomit.


Personally, I think being absent from social interactions is better than me creating more damages when I go out. Or is it being absent from social interactions has made me worse?

Excuse me for being very vague in this post. My mind is not in the right place right now and I'm not sure how to express a lot of things into words. When my words are limited, my communication is limited.